What Would Jesus NOT Do?

Arg. I need some structure.

These past few days have been emotional.

I look forward to the future ahead of me, I just don't know how to get to it.

That makes no sense.

Little of this does right now.

Gosh, I'm so confused.

I just don't know how to get it all back, so to speak.

Here are some lyrics, I think paint a clearer picture:

I live by some advice this girl Lissa told me.

The other day Lissa told me that she missed the old me.

Which made me question when I went missing.

And when I start treating my friends different.

What am I afraid of?

This is supposed to be what dreams are made of.

The people I don't have time to hang with,

Always look at me and say the same shit.

"You promised me you would never change."

Sometimes living in a world like this,

It's pretty hard not to go insane.

Not pretty if you don't comply,

Pretty easy if you don't complain.

Stand there like you don't feel pain.

No tears in the face of defeat.

Pretend 'til the end that you don't fear change.

Don't admit that your faith is weak.

Don't say that you feel like dying.

Life's hard then it feels like diamonds.

Your home's just far too gone.

Much too late to even feel like trying.

Can't understand what I'm saying?

Can't figure out what I'm implying?

If you feel you don't wanna be alive,

You feel just how I am.

This world is such a fucked up place,

My mind's such a fucked up shape,

Everything down here sucks,

Maybe what's up there is great.

We all gotta go one day,

I just wanna cut to the chase.

I wanna stop these nightmares,

I just wanna touch her face.

All you see is all my feats,

All I see is all my flaws.

All I hear is all my demons,

Even through your applause.

All you see is all my flights,

Well all I see is all my falls.

All you see is all my rights,

All I see is all my wrongs.

Lord keep telling me to fight,

Gun on my table telling me to come on.

Telling me to put him inside my hand,

Then put it up right next to my dome.

Lord keep telling me to find a reason,

Anything to keep me from squeezing.

Simplest things, yeah you really like summer,

You really like music, you really like reading.

Love!

I can't win if it's me against me.

One of us ain't gonna survive.

And my heart been broke for a while,

Your's been the one keepin' me alive.

Peace.